what to do what to do! =/

i'm happy cause i did something thats best for me
but again i regret it ! cause this thing i did
is making me have no comfort feeling in me
it really hurts !
but while it hurts i'm fucking happy
like i'm enjoy'ing more in life !
=='

but again! while enjoy'ing life !!
i'm just missing this piece of puzzle !
this piece of puzzle ?
when u find it all ! it becomes ONE
and it stays together !
never falls apart !

i've put together the puzzle
but then just this one piece fell
somewhere !
now lost it !
can't find it back can't reconnect the puzzle !
it's too late to find it back cause it's gone !
and will be gone forever !
*having regretfullNESS.. but again
feel pretty much proud ..
it's like i don't have to worry anymore

BUT that piece of puzzle MEANS SO HO HO MUCH!
mishell uno what i'm on about !

planns for holidays ! 10/4/09-27/4/09 =='

10.4.09 >> mother went melb. brother went to dads! import cousin and ii karaoke all DAY!
11.4.09 >> cambo and laos new yr at bonnyrigg
12.4.09 >> thai&laos ny waterfight at bonnyrigg
13.4.09 >> start work at 10 a.m to 7 p.m
14.4.09 >> shopping for the easter BBQ
15.4.09 >> start work at 10 a.m to 7 p.m then BBQ xDD
16.4.09 >> clean up the house form the BBQ
17.4.09 >> easter show WHOLE DAY THING
18.4.09 >> easter show at night
19.4.09 >> BREAK ~
20.4.09 >> WORK from 10a.m to 7p.m
21.4.09 >> getting stuff ready for the BEACH with GDPT ish..
22.4.09 >> WORK from 10a.m to 7p.m
23.4.09 >> BEACHING IT BITCHES xDD whole day thing
24.4.09 >> WORK ==' 10a.m to 7 p.m
25.4.09 >> KEVINS 21st WOOT WOOT
26.4.09 >> STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY
27.4.09 >> STUDY till 10 then WORK till 7 ==' then STUDY
28.4.09 >> STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY
29.4.09 >> first half yearly exam! { english } =='